Namaste

Have you ever tried to do something for yourself, only to find out that it's next to impossible?

A few months back, I started trying Yoga.

Something to center myself,  to relieve stress.

To get in some exercise, without feeling like I was exercising. 

I even found out that my local gym held an evening class!

So I went out and bought myself a yoga mat.

I went to a few classes, and even found a pretty amazing Youtube channel, 

so that I could practice at home. 

Then I remembered {how could I forget} that I have two kids and no sitter!

The class I tried going to was in the evening, but my husband's work schedule is kind of all over the place right now, which means that I am not always able to count on making it to the class.

Yes, my local gym has childcare.

But do I really want to pay for it? Or can I?

To me, that seems to defeat the whole purpose of finding your zen!

Then there is the practice-at-home routine. 

I tried that too!

But of course, it's kind of hard to find your inner peace when your toddler no longer naps, 

and your eight year old is constantly nagging you! 

So, I kind of gave it up. 

Not necessarily in the give-up kind of way, 

but more in the lets-try-this-later kind of way.

Which I fully plan on doing when school starts back up next month!

But until then, I have been trying to find out what finding your inner peace is all about.

How to find that zen feeling, and have been exploring the meaning of Namaste.

The meaning behind Yoga, Namaste and all things Zen, have always spoken to me.

But for some reason, I have never taken the time to explore them.

Shame on me!

I really do love the way I feel afterwards.

It is much more of a workout than I had originally thought, which I consider to be a bonus.

And the funny part of it is, I have no balance and I am not as flexible as I once was!

But oh well! I have to at least try, and I am.

Maybe one day I will get to that point where I don't have to try so hard.

And maybe one day I will be able to reach those difficult poses.

But first, I HAVE to find the time for myself.

But how? 

I have been told to include my little one, to have her join me.

But trying to include my toddler into a yoga practice is everything but peaceful and relaxing!

I have to find a way to be at peace with all that is crazy in this world.

For more reasons than I should probably admit, I need to find inner peace.

I need to find zen.

I need to learn the true, deep meaning of Namaste.

Because sometimes, people just need to find themselves.

This particular journey is all about me.

Me, Myself and I.